Six feet under

Beneath that cynical facade,
lies a beating heart,
Somewhere far away,
written on stone, engraved
there lies an open grave...

The ultimate destination-the final one,
six feet under when the heart is almost done,
We'll bury it in the dark,
We'll bury it so deep,
Bury it soon so we can't hear it beat.

In a black box there lies the heart,
strong and resilient, though we ripped it apart,
refusing to give up, not willing to give in,
it beats even today, it's fragments still living.

That's what he said.

I think we’re all familiar with Newton’s laws of motion, his claim to fame. According to Newton’s first law of motion “An object remains in a state of rest or of uniform motion in a straight line unless compelled to change that state by an applied force”. In other words, all objects resist a change in their state of motion.

In a qualitative way, the tendency of undisturbed objects to stay at rest or to keep moving with the same velocity is called INERTIA.

Some of you might be wondering why I’m talking physics. Being a student with a science background, it may seem like a natural thing but to be honest, Physics was never my cup of tea( or coffee). No, I hated physics. But there is definitely something beautiful about how we can apply almost every theory or law, be it einstein’s theory of relativity or Galileo’s contributions- everything can be applied to our daily lives.

One such law that interests me particularly is Newton’s law of inertia. How many times have we faced a block in our lives?

Be it a writer’s block (something I am most familiar with though I don’t make any false claims about being a writer), or a mid-life crisis, and in some cases a quarter life crisis. We’re managing crises day by day, and some of us, nay, most of us feel like we’re stuck in something we can’t maneuver out of in a jiffy. Most of the times, we’re blocked and a state of inertia sets in wherein we give up and stay put- conveniently comfortable with the state of affairs.

Now as Newton said, A force at this time becomes necessary to compel the object (in this case, us) to get moving. How to break the status quo? Force! And where does this force get generated? Here’s the interesting part- from within. This may be a blasphemy for all the physics lovers out there, because it contradicts a lot of laws and theories which will never recognize how a body can generate force on its own, but this is something I do believe in. In my own opinion, the best way to get out of an inertia-like state is to motivate yourself and find that drive. You have to question yourself- what drives you? It could be as simple as a granola bar, or a long motivational chat with a friend, even an unlikely inspiration or a desire to attain a long term goal. Anything that gets us moving, keeps us going and gives us a sense of purpose or direction.

For me, what works always is a little bit of introspection.

A look within, to figure out what it is that I want- be it short term or long term. Ultimately this becomes a driving force and I find myself moving after a long and numbingly comfortable hiatus.

Before signing off, I’d like to say that make whatever works work for you, but get moving. Life is too short to be wasted.

May the force be with you!

Tales of a conflict-ridden mind

Memories fade away

Try as you might to make them stay

Roses wither away

Tired of the games we play

Loves me, loves me not

Love me do and spare a thought

Let this moment freeze,

Can we stay silent please?

This conflict inside of me,

All these stories are make-believe

See me through the looking glass

Staring back at me, my past

No running, no hiding

Just facing and fighting

Thoughts scattered on the floor

Empty room and broken door

Keys and locks, locks and keys

Can you stay here with me please?

Empty promises and lies,

Right or wrong, who decides?

Let this moment freeze,

Silence, I beg you please…

Kaleidoscope

As my foolish thoughts unfold,

So do my sins and the lies that I’ve told,

I stand alone in the volley of my misgivings,

Shut in from the break of day, shut out from the living.

Trying to reach out to the world outside,

But no one heard me as I cried,

Like crushed pieces of glass in a kaleidoscope ,

Weaving patterns of distant hope.

Fleeting moments of clarity,

What to think, what to believe?

And as if by a miracle it dawns on me,

What has befuddled my mind for all of eternity.

Because in the end we all want to hope,

Because in the end we all want to believe,

Because in end we’ve all been shown,

Yes, in the end we stand alone.

Waiting

I chide myself for not weeping today,
for the tears won't fall,
no they won't flow
not today, not any day...

I chide myself for being so weak,
for my weakness brings me hope
and hope will be my end.

I chide myself for the thoughts,
oh so childlike,
I only wish they would stop,
spare me this time, but they won't.

I chide myself for the pain I caused,
should the scars heal with time,
should the ache in my chest abate...
It is for that day I wait.

Let there be darkness

"Coz it's alright, just follow the light- Don't be afraid of the dark"-Travis

I've always loved the dark. Strange as it sounds, happiness finds me there. Sometimes, when I come back from a long day in college, I simply love switching the lights off in my room and just relaxing.
Something about darkness intrigues me and as I try to understand that today, I will share my thoughts and discoveries with you.


Some questions come to my mind.

What is darkness, really?
Why is it that when I type 'darkness' in any search engine, I get redirected to 'fear related quotes'?
Finally, why do most people fear the dark?


As I try to address these questions in my mind, I can't help but dwell on the last one which is- why do people fear the dark? Perhaps this fear is deep rooted in some, and superficial or not-so-deep-rooted in others. Humans have a tendency to fear the unknown and sadly, darkness does bring with it a sense of uncertainty.  You never know what darkness will bring with it. Whether it is stubbing your toe twelve times over which is rather painful, or finding something unpleasant...or simply having a strange sense of  vulnerability-the dark can scare you.

Why does darkness bring out the feeling of being vulnerable in us? What is it that compels us to feel afraid of it, haunted even, by it? Perhaps the reason is that it is in the darkness, that we really feel alone.
No one wants to be alone. Sure, we have those days when we want to be left alone and don't feel like talking or interacting with others. But really, to be alone isn't the best thing always.  Loneliness finds its friend in darkness. Together, they like to haunt us, sneer at us and put us in a very cold place.

 There is one thing though, that really intrigues me. Consider a scenario where you are home alone and it's night time. The lights go off. You struggle to find your way in the dark, feeling the furniture-anything that comes in your way and you take small, careful steps. So, so afraid you might fall and get hurt. I like to dig a little deeper into this entire process. Try to look at it from a different angle. Just as we struggle to find our way in the darkness, we struggle to find our way in the darkest periods of our lives. We stumble a couple of times, maybe even fall once or twice. But we rise. We get up and we pursue our quest to find ourselves, to find the solutions to our problems and to find the answers to our questions.

So before I sign off today, I'd like to reiterate that darkness is not to be confused with something that is negative and something that we should fear. Sometimes our darkest days can be the best thing that could have ever happened to us as they develop us, redefining who we are as a person. Ultimately, darkness will transition into light. Perhaps it is only then that we realize how important darkness really is, for it is darkness that teaches us to appreciate the light.


Xoxo
Nikita

The song I couldn't complete.

Mirror, mirror on the wall,
Who's the biggest fool of them all?
Tales of lies and deceit,
Beg for mercy at your feet,
No love lost, No love gained,
My words will be all that remains,
I won't fight, will show restraint
I will never confess again,
Will never hurt,
Won't ever break,
will never speak for your sake...